I’ve been a bit depressed the past day or so. I hate it when I’m so close yet can’t grasp it. Always second place. Good but not great. Story of my life. It’s frustrating. Sounds dramatic but sometimes I wish I didn’t exist here. I’m struggling whether to just accept things and move on. There’s a lot of good and exciting things happening in my life but yet I feel there’s just a tad missing. There’s this darkness hovering and I don’t know how to get rid of it. I’m trying get over the next big hump in life.